Unwanted; effects of rejection

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It finally hit me. After clues and hints from nearly everyone around me, it finally hit me. Nobody wants me. Maybe for what I can do for them, but not me. Not my person. That’s a pretty tough pill to swallow.

Maybe one day I will be able to fully wrap my head around it. To fully comprehend that

I’ve been unwanted
and I didn’t even know it
I didn’t have sense enough
to wake up and show it

on my face from
watching as others unwind

their junk on me
I took it and ran
I didn’t even realize
that they couldn’t stand

or to be in my presence
I think they wanted to be me
take my Spirit,
take my essence

and do with it
what they pleased
they never liked me anyway
and there I was on my knees

begging please like me
please be my friend
now I’m glad they didn’t like me
I’m glad I didn’t fit in

with family, friends or any other attempts at relationships with a significant other.

With forgotten birthdays, uninvites and disinterest in the who-ness of me, I can only conclude that I have been unwanted.

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14 thoughts on “Unwanted; effects of rejection

  1. I read your words and hear your heart. I feel your pain and want to reach out, to care, and to show you how special you are. But a blogging friend is too distant. You need someone to wrap you in their heartsrings up close and personal. I will pray for that person to come to you. Soon!

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  2. I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Be not discouraged and be not dismayed, for everything God has for you is on the way! Blessings Dorothy!

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