As I listened to one of my all time favorite pastors this morning, my heart was pricked because he hit on a topic I hadn’t thought of when it comes to impatience.
Over the years very seldom have things, jobs or sometimes people kept my interest for any significant length of time. I’d never really considered it a big deal until now.
It’s the one thing I couldn’t figure out about myself. Why do I run? Just flee a situation at will? Am I bored, anxious, looking for attention? Have ADHD? What is it?!
Today it hit me. I have no root. The minister referenced the scripture of the seeds the sower sowed on stoney ground and all of the other forms of grounds. The seeds didn’t produce because they had no foundation to latch onto. They had no root. I can’t recall the others as this one really hit me upside the head. Hard.
At first I thought that it was lust. Which I define as insatiable desire for something or someone. Never to be quenched. But what am I lusting after? I don’t know. But what I do know is that I want to be stable, dependable and a reliable friend, coworker, wife to my future husband and believer.
Someone you can count on in the good times and the bad. Now all I have to do is sit still long enough to catch root. This time, I will.
I don’t want to be shallow
I want to add depth to my soul
I want to be rooted and grounded
Complete, lacking nothing – whole.
This is my prayer that I become like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.
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