Letting go of Holding on

I can't decide if I'm holding onto letting go so I won't get too attached. Or, if I'm letting go of holding on just in case you're not mine to begin with. Which is it? How can I simultaneously hold onto while letting go of? I guess I could keep him in my head and … Continue reading Letting go of Holding on

Tongues of Fire

Sometimes, God does drive-by's through my mouth. Maybe that's one of the reasons I'm Unwanted. Unbeknownst to me, he's getting into er'body's business during my conversations. Which is totally unfair to me. But, I gave him my life and told him to do with me what he pleased. I open my mouth and he speaks. … Continue reading Tongues of Fire

Unwanted; effects of rejection

It finally hit me. After clues and hints from nearly everyone around me, it finally hit me. Nobody wants me. Maybe for what I can do for them, but not me. Not my person. That's a pretty tough pill to swallow. Maybe one day I will be able to fully wrap my head around it. … Continue reading Unwanted; effects of rejection

Love in the Fight

Confrontations. Who needs them?Sometimes we all do, especially with family members you love and care about. You HAVE to have the tough conversations; interventions is what they call it today. That's what love does. I had a confrontation this morning with a young family member who seems to think that as long as you hang … Continue reading Love in the Fight

Cold Bloodied Betrayal

I was just thinking about Jesus and how he handled the betrayal of a friend. That seems like an oxymoron, but only a friend can betray you. Not a strangers or an acquaintance. Only a friend. The Son of man goeth as it is written of him: but woe unto that man by whom the … Continue reading Cold Bloodied Betrayal